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AWAKENING
TO HEAVEN WITHIN
Awakening with A.C.
Week One
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Safety in Numbers
A personal reflection from A.C. on shyness, spirituality,
and finding the courage to step toward the unknown - together.
A.C.'s Full Reflection
I mentioned in my initial welcome to the Awakening movement that I am shy. Along with being shy, I find myself quite logical. Maybe everybody thinks they are logical; I do not know. But that is how I see myself. Logical. I was good at math, and I had great confidence in my ability to learn what I was being taught in my math classes as a kid and later in college. With youthful shyness - and yes, insecurities - I found safety in numbers.
When Numbers Felt Safe
Unlike being an artist, where you are vulnerable because everything is subjective, I liked the idea of numbers always adding up the exact same way. No vulnerability. Therefore, with this left-brainer mindset, I got an accounting degree and went on to a 25-year career in accounting and finance at a quite large corporation.
Fast forward more than 40 years after getting that accounting degree, and I now consider myself a creative writer - a right brainer - and a soul on a divine spiritual journey. Imagine that.
This entire journey took place in my own mind. But unfortunately, even with this amazing spiritual journey, I am still shy. My ego says, “You better come at me with more than just some spiritual knowledge and half-ass spiritual practices. Your insecurities run deep.”
Safety in Numbers - Again
With that inner dialogue happening in my mind, maybe I am once again looking for safety in numbers, only this time in a much different way.
I know that one day I will have to face my insecurities and vulnerabilities and jump headfirst into the infinite unknown. Apparently, I do not want to - or am spiritually incapable of - making that jump alone.
Maybe this is what the Awakening movement is about, at least for me: divine spiritual beings coming together through spiritual practices and awakened circles, collectively creating enough unmanifested consciousness - love - that we can all find the courage to make this quantum leap of faith into the infinite unknown together as one.
"Remember me? Well, I am back in charge now, and I'm taking us home."
That is what I want our collective hearts to say to our collective egos.
Watch, Listen, Read
My Spiritual Contributor of the Week:
Marianne Williamson
You may be wondering: How on Earth did I go from a corporate accountant to a self-perceived creative writer on a spiritual journey that took place all in my own mind? I can give one person credit for at least the beginning of that transformation: Marianne Williamson.
A Simple Spiritual Practice for the Week
Play the Heart performance. Let the whole experience land before you explain it.
Play "Edge of Evolution." Notice one phrase, sound, or feeling that stays with you.
CREATE
Choose one small way to create love in the manifested world today.
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